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Friday, March 17, 2006

well today actualli im suppose to post this super acid-wordy article i've stayed up to draft out yesterday nite. it's been troubling me very much lately. decided not to actualli write out the entire post cuz it's 4 pages long.. as much as i do practise the 'forgive forget continue' value, it's still very hard to realli let go some small incident that actualli means alot. lies, mistreats, pretentious promises and grudges. well if u ain't stupid, all these are common happenings between frenships. why i emphasize so much is cuz for a true frenship to work out, it takes 2 hands 2 clap. when it's always 1 person doing the action and the other watching, the person-in-action gets very tired. and im get very tired.. as much as the reality is unfair and cruel, i hope my frens can try to contribute their part to make it less unfair.. it's not always that hard. i definitely glad that thru all these years, i've made a few true frenships that i can be proud off. frenships that stand the test of time and reality. and im proud to be with them. tracy and kuis thnx so much for all ur support and happiness we've shared all these years.. i do grade my frens and im frank about that. cuz i wanna know if this frenship is worth the investment.when things get a little insensible and pointless, i call it quits. and im soon, at the rate this goes, imma call it quits. im gonna list some of the insensible and pointless things i've been receiving and i DON like it
allegations of me being '***' or wadever. i don like this cuz it's an insult to my moral value. and pls for ur info, when it's a 3-person outing, when u do silly whispering to another person infront of me, it shows how undermined i am to u..
bringing up silly events in the past over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over again to make me feel bad. does it gives u pleasure doing that?
pretentious promises and forgets. don promise anything if u cant do it..
mistreats. i've always repeated this over and over again. that i'm not an item and i don like being used like a commodity. everyone is not ur pawns... netiher am i. as much as i can help, i'll do it.. u gotta know i have my stuff as well. it's not onli u who's buzy.. i've already moved over the 'being kicked aside like trash for something new' event so pls.. u have 'something new' to help u. ask that 'something new'.
u're not everything. when u try to boast overly about urself, it can get extraordinarily stupid and then when it's my turn to try a little, u go 'so not u' and when it's about u, it's always 'so u'.
alrite that's jus some of the unwanted stuffs. very uncalled for.. as much as i know U(and i hope someone actualli links himself/herself to my post, it shows that u r still humane.) are wondering why the hell am i bitching over here over this and questioning me whether i've done something bad to any frenship, i can 'big-time'ly say YES but i will definitely done my best to maintain every frenship till the very end cuz for me, frenship is a lifetime contribution after a a traumatising event that shocked me emotionally.
SO ppl who's deciding to try mess with their frens i hope u think twice and be a little more mature and sensitive cuz u're not the onli human in this world with emotions.
God bless the true frens in this world

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