Tuesday, January 24, 2006
in words of the broken heart it just emotions. yes it it..
heart felt day yesterday when it was suppose to be madness shopping.
had to breakdown.. had to cry.. weakling i am..
well at least i know im normal.. and i do feel for the ppl around me...
went home and then TYRA!
ooo. saw her boogie her way thru her so-called last runway show. she's still a model aight. and wad does model do? photoshoot and runway show.. cant imagine wad tyra will be doing if she wasn't modeling. a can crushing mama? haha.. well i love to see that.
tml's chinatowning.. and uhmz.. in suit?
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Sunday, January 22, 2006
time to set up booth for collection of ang baos.. im damn happy cuz it's time for the riches.. and shopping and eating and uhmz.. alot of greetings..
dress up ppl.
(*To be cont.)
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Friday, January 20, 2006
personally i feel this years open house is abit lack lustre. recalled my year had a LOTR saga booth. this year was pure stupid. with silly gift backs the shape of an ordinary sec sch sling. and this ppl coming in was almost countable. and the i-guides are so horrendous. they're like taking up half the space of the bridge leading to my sch. so not welcoming. it's intimidatin.
and i hate floaters on the bridge. u know those idiots who got no idea where they wanna walk on the bridge? float around and occupies the bridge selfishly?. yea that's wad i say!
anyway if u guys are thinking who the hell is that face on the tp open house brochure and the face of O level seminar, it's my dear fren rach from cmm.. hoho. she sure can carry a blur look. SAY BYE TO KERSON AND DAVID cuz u're face is running too old...
talking bout rach, my dear rach from my class(a diff one. this is wad happen when u're in a girl dominated faculty).she wants a V.Secret lingerie cuz it's so hot... as told by her.
anyway tyra, giselle, naomi and abi wld be featured on V.secret.. gonna have a nose bleeding!
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Thursday, January 19, 2006
hmm wed was a emo day. the barbies are letting all their woos out and well my best fren J sure shared her part with me also. mades me feel bless cuz when i think about myself, i din have all those trivial stuff to worry about. guess it's time for me to share my blessin with them.
LOVE U ALL AND WISH U BEST!
today's my school team thingy, and i feel sick after that last round of shock. well that's wad u get when u hold a shopping bag more than a tennis racket(woops**** HINT HINT).
still imma go ahead with the thing cuz u know, ppl outside there isn't treating me fairly, why i not give myself a fair share of chances. im definitely worth more than judgements.
night shopping was normal cuz most of my fave shops are like closed la.. AT 930! i mean u know s'pore always advert' herself as he city with buzz. yea with literally buzz. u can actualli hear crickets buzzing in the middle of the silent night. goodness man. singapore buck up! LOOK AT KL, BANGKOK, MADISON AVENUE~ learn from them man. well at least i got my loot. a island shop pants which was suppose to cost a bomb... suppose. get it?
anyway in 20 mins time im suppose to leave for lavender to 'chop' my silly passport. why is it 'chop'? and why not slice? how can a word like stamp actualli be linked unanimously to the word 'chop'? anyway fish english cuz i have much better things to worry bout.
work tml. yes money in, no body out.... cuz im realli pain here and there... fish cake.
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Tuesday, January 17, 2006
this is one big important entry which i feel has been quite an impact on me.
Let us start the bitching session. it all begins with my 2 second thought again but this time, it seems to be resonating in my mind every since a event today, hence a 2 hr thought(it's special cuz i hardly have this. probably it's a awaken dragon in my heart.)
today i was asked to return to a hobby group(discreet) in school for some trials. at the point when i received the messaged, my response was,' oh man. not this. it's so history to me cuz of some past events, which re-organise my perception of 'fairness'.'
Critique this.
XXX,'U r graded purely on today's performance. so give it ur best shot.'
(2 hrs past and in the time that lapsed, i've so called self-secure myself a seating in the group with my unbelievable result.)
XXX(2 hrs later),'sry steven but u r out. i feel that YYY deserves this seating much more than anyone cuz of his PAST performance....'
(saw that 'past' lettering?)
Holy i mean u cant deside on ur vocab to use?
so i was like alrite, mayb im not fated to do this hobby which i tot has always been my best(besides something else *SECRET* and bitching that is). so i decided to say bye to that thing. it's so not fair. and i feel that why wasn't i assessed on my strength and THAT ACTUAL DAY PERFORMANCE? so diddly fiddly fellow even got himself a seating without being triumphant in any(pardon me) *SHIT*
and my life from that day on was a gamble. did i do the right thing? until i met this realli great clique in school.
'YOU WILL ALWAYS HAVE THE BEST OF MY LOVE!'
time sure proved alot of things to me. that i can be very independent, that i am capable of achieving anything i want. and that im loved and i do love.
today's return to that wadever team sure proved my words right. well almost.....
1st i entered humbly (pls ppl, im a laughing fellow and i like to socialise. my face was abit blur today cuz 1stly, today's happenin was so intense to my body and secondly, i've tried my best to go around.) well like wad my good fren say, why shld i go around pleasing ppl? i shld be comfy with myself. and that's wad i do. stand alone mostly and waiting for commands to execute. and i swear wadever i did today, i've done my 100% and i can feel my bit of involvement.
just after i tot that to myself, that stupid in-charge ranted at me, '1 MONTH!'.
i was like wtf!!! why wasn't my strength assess again? why is the moment of accident revealation of weakness magnified to the size of jupiter? FREAK MAN!
there was ppl who performed below my line. why was i picked? as much as i tried to encourage myself by thinking,' alrite he thinks 1 have the potential, so that 1 month is for u to polish urself. 1 mth. i've achieved more.'
still i cant stop my 2 second thought to take over me.
my thought later on was pretty evil.
today's event was actualli a bad opening cuz of some backstabbin issue of a unsatisfied follower. well the target? the in-charge but who else cuz he knows how to spell fairness the other way round.
wad did i say? time is surely the best witness. without fire, there cannot be smoke.
it's just time. mayb not ur time now, but it will be. and i swear. with backstabbers going around, heart is definitely going to break cuz the truth is simply deafening and cruel.
wanna hear my part of truth, I say alrite. 1 month. after that, if u show me that look and the punitive attitude, i say fuck it man. go look for ur mr perfect, and ah! no one is perfect. anyway i am no one in ur team. get right!
I was about to dedicate a song to that freakish hobby group but then again, u don deserve a shit.
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Monday, January 16, 2006
Sweeter and Sweeter, love grows
And heavens there for those
Who fool the tricks of time
With hearts of Love will find
True love...in a special way
Wad a hectic day. i've finished 2 online quiz, 1 test, 2 project outlines, 1 online project draft.
Goodness.
After listening to my fave song which i think's gonna go on fire if i were to continue playing a few more spins on my MP3. touched and relax.
well tml will be my last burden for the week besides work on friday. hope it works out.
lookin forward to winding off on wed. hm.. wad else can i do when im alone?
watch Exorcist and freak myself out?
watch a horrible film like The Promise and freak myself out?
watch how i wobble in the mirror and freak myself out?
Yes i'll do just that
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Sunday, January 15, 2006
i think life's so not fair. why cant it ever stay carefree. i mean.... it simply suked. so many stuff holding me back from doing what i want.
this week, i have 2 test, 2 online quiz, project consultation.
it's stupid how life can be. so many worries. my mum is like,'boy, when are u gonna go get ur pants for new year?' and im always,'when im free.'
dots.. am i even free when i think i would be?
im just looking forward to new year. when i think i might be realli feeling detached from the hectic world(beside from that 1 day chalet thingy which i tot would be pathetic enuff to be called a 'day off'.)
anyway i tot a long lost fren of mine just said 'hello' to me using a army truck.
*HORNS*
Gena's birthday tml. another thing to be joyous about in a crazy world.
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Tuesday, January 10, 2006
rainy day rainy mood~
got this picture from my fren. see something?
Hope this is real for now.. it's sad pictures with me is cut here and there. shucks...
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Friday, January 06, 2006
1st i gotta say, flu has to be e kaching virus of the century.
why is it so, cuz it's so common. u can get it anyhow. even with a stupid sore throat. then u gotta see doctor. then u eat medicine and u pay an pay.. when will there ever be a virus that is free? fish cake.....
when i grow up, i will definitely cut off my nose and my throat. cuz it is so costly in maintainence.
nose~ it always has pore problems and then sneeze on unwanted occasion. imagine u talking to Mr S.R Nathan and u give him a welcoming sneeze. AH! CHOO!!. hm nice...
Throat~ fuking irritating. .
onli do all these when i grow up. but when will that be? hm...
anyway why isn't the name 'Steven' in top 100 baby names? there's name as quirky as AVA, Aiden. there's also name like Logan(inspired by X-men Wolverine but is a dead ringer for the word Longan). wad is the world coming to?!
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Wednesday, January 04, 2006
had a long talk with my dear fren. very enlightening.
anyway i just had my hair cut.
at a saloon. well i was trying to make my cut worth the cost. so i went this and that thru-out the cutting session haha. well wasn't screwed. love it.
nothing more to talk about. but i gotta say i miss work....
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Sunday, January 01, 2006
Behold the new year!~
Well the new year is definitely better to behold than the hopeless 1 i had previously.
Hm my resolutions? To make my family happier and also fulfill my longed for dreams. haha guess?
anyway my eve was definitely a very 'punishing' one. at least i wasn't me who got the punishment, it's those who actualli abuse the meaning of partying who got it. hope they like my 'strawberry-cooler-mix-chilli-mix-cheese-mix-water' concortion haha. it was definitely a gift from the sky. thanks to NYDC for coordinating with me. haha. love u guys.
anyway wallace and gromit is mix and match of english and american humour. it's MentaL! HAHA
happy new year to the barbies. haha amber to u!
happy new year to my long long time pals. love u all
MOOO!
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rainy day rainy mood~